[[*Fading To Black*]]

Sunday, September 27, 2009

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its all now down with me.. just me..

when my phone rang, you know how much i hoped it was u that called??
are you really concern about this relationship?
you know you had a date today, and you still sleep late..
you knew u will oversleep..
but why..

my heart is broken..
really broken..

i may be really didnt have anyone to turn to now..
turning to myself.. and only myself..

i might not be worth for any relationship..
i requested to much.. have i?
im not sure too..

have i regreted something??

y can one be so different??

i just wanted to make my days with you more memorable..
more special, where i can show off to my friends
to say about one thing and we can recall everything in the past..
to make me feel more secure
so that i wont feel that today is just another day..
make me feel excited..
not just wait for time to past, not just i know everything here..
its boring..
its tiring..
to do everything again and again..

i have locked this blog today..
is to close myself up..
and push others away..
my thoughts are now too harmful for anyone else to see..

i know..
i dont wish to share anything else with anyone for now..

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|4:26 PM|

Friday, September 25, 2009

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i really hate this life of mine..
i just wanted to talk..
to be sweet to me..
comfort me when i tell you im upset..
thats all..
is it that hard..
im hating myself..

hoping for so much?
hoping you would comfort me..
but instead.. what happen was that you were even more upset..

i wanted you to plan something nice..
something that would surprize me..
something fun, and romantic for both of us to do...

maybe, what you preferred to do is to laze around at home play dota, watch tv..
to me.. its like treating me like im transparent, or translusent,
only care when u feel that im there...

im jealous, scared, afraid...
tired, head spinning,

i dont want you to be worried..
but yet..
you are the one making me feel so insecure..

make me feel your love..
please...
i need it..

its drifting away...
my heart aches...
alot.

hoping for so much
yet again..
it hurts..

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|7:25 AM|

Saturday, September 19, 2009

[[Evil girl..]]

i am an evil girl,
that wants people to be the same or even in an lower level than me..

i am an evil girl,
that wants people that makes me upset feels worst.

i am an evil girl,
im not a good girl.....

all i wanted was to have a happy day,
you knew that having you coming would really make my day,
just by having you around me.

you always say, but didnt do
i rather you dont tell me anything and suddenly giving me a surprise,

rather than you telling me now, making me happy, lifting me into heaven
and telling me later you cant make it, throwing me to hell.

you had a decision whether to come or not,
but you said you will.
but you didnt.

you had a choice to come or not
but you choose not to.

im hurt.
very hurt

i rather you lie to me,
telling me that you had no choice
your parents forced you to stay,
not letting you go until tml,
but you didnt..

letting me know that you had a choice,
and you didnt choose it,
knowing that it would make me upset,
you still choose not to come...

dont say what you cant do..
dont promise what you cant do
dont show me that you had a choice

they would only make me more upset..

yes, i am this evil..
to make people even more upset than i am..
i was super upset..
i didnt want to go anymore..
even if it was with you..

i was hoping you would give a surprise and turn up in my room when i woke up,
i was hoping to see you msg, apologizing and comforting me, and make it back to me..
but you didnt even do any of this..

am i requesting for too much??

why can other people be so sweet,
im jealous..
why can other people be so thoughtful and do as they say
im envious
why can other people be so caring and concern
im so jealous
why can other people be so happy, yet we are almost having tiff every week
im so upset...

i guess im just requesting for too much...

[[Walking Alone On This Endless Road]]*|9:26 PM|

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